Now I'm A Mother

Alhamdulillah.. i have safely gave birth to a baby boy weighed 3 46kg on 21/3/14...
It was such a beautiful memory that I wont forget...

Sorry I will write more about how my life has changed...
My baby boy is sleeping, hence the quick update..

Take care friends..

Xoxo

Z

37 Weeks and Happy Birthday Walid

Today marks my 37th week of pregnancy.
The father of my child also turns 27 today. What a lovely day Alhamdulillah.
Yesterday evening I was having this mild contraction. It felt like having period pain during the 'day of the month' with significant sakit pinggang. Serius, I was kinda freaked out. Called husband and he felt the same (lol).
I checked for any other indications i.e blood spotting or any water leak.
NO indications, a bit relieved.
Husband pulak jauh and he was up with something else, so he kept looking at the phone takut-takut I call lagi.

Alhamdulillah I think it was just a Braxton Hicks and probably baby was going further down, prepared for labour anytime soon.

On the other hand, husband turns 27 today. Alhamdulillah a year older and wiser, may he is always under Allah's blessings.
Moga dipanjangkan umur dalam iman dan dimurahkan rezeki yg halal. Moga happy sentiasa.

Long Lasting Friendship; Far from the Memories

Not that I dont like it, but I cant commit. I love moving on with my life, always start new.
Never look back.

Sorry guys, I'm just far from the memories.

Tiga Puluh Tiga

Salam dan hai semua. Apa khabar?
At times I miss blogging and taking photos guna my DSLR. Tapi apakan daya, komitmen hidup yg lain juga banyak memanggil. Kadang-kadang saya juga tak larat sangat.
Bila dah sarat ni mmg banyak back pain and jalan pun sgt lah slow. Kerja di opis pun byk juga kene setelkan.
Ya Allah .. Permudahkanlah urusanku.
I try not to be stressful dealing with daily matters. Be happy and calm, have enough rest. That's all I need to do. Hehe

This morning I went for my 33weeks checkup. Alhamdulillah so far so good, baby is now approx. 2.29kg.
At times I try to create a conversation with my baby as some people advised me to do so. Bagus kata mereka because babies are actually able to hear and respond to whatever we say to them.
That is why bila I borak with my baby and usap perut, he will respond accordingly, love that moment to bits.

On the other hand, being thousand miles away from husband is a tough challenge for a preggy mommy like me. Alhamdulillah kaki tak bengkak dan saya masih boleh drive sendiri.
Allah gives me ease in so many ways..syukur sgt. Cramp tgh malam pun sgt lah jarang. Cuma kadang-kadang bila rindu husband sgt2, air mata laju je keluar. Then I pujuk diri sendiri dan doa moga dikuatkan.

Dan satu lagi saya harap to all wives that are TTC wouldnt feel anything bad towards my writing about my pregnancy. Ya Allah, moga mereka juga dikurniakan rezeki untuk mengandung..Amiin..

Also, saya juga tak reti nak update every single activity or development with regards to  my pregnancy.
Cuma bila saya rajin, saya blogging lah. Macam sekarang. Maybe I update a lot more in my twitter.

I miss my husband, thank you sayang for being such a good husband. Thank you belikan kurma, pati delima dan jus tok guru aritu.

I Love You, you're the gift from Allah.

Till then, I will write again..

Love, Z

Every Move is A Joy

Tomorrow I will reach my 29 weeks of pregnancy. Alhamdulillah, may Allah grant good health to my baby and I.

Now baby sgt lah aktif bergerak. Every move is a joy.

Bila I rindu, I tgk gambar scan 4d baby. Hehehe.

Body starts to feel really heavy, jalan pun slow.

Bila petang je I rasa penat sgt dan tak sabar nak balik rumah.

Malam pun makan simple-simple je.

Now I wont do any more travelings, next flight will be for my maternity leave.

Cant wait.

:)

24 Weeks

Salam all.. It has been about 18 weeks since I last wrote anything here. Sekarang pregnancy dah 24 minggu Alhamdulillah..
Life is good and last month hubby and I went to Qatar for our honeymoon. Hehe kidding.. Actually I had a conference there with my boss but boss suggested me to bring along hubby as I'm pregnant and might need more attention. Thank you bosses sebab memahami. The trip was awesome, memang seronok first time ke luar negara dengan suami.
Next, my appetite increases and me keeps eating. Last month berat naik 5kg in just a month and doc suruh control makan takut diri ini gemuk sgt serta baby besar sgt. Hahahaha.

Ok, will write more ya.
Love, Z

Rezeki di Bulan Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah, khamis ni cukup 6 minggu I pregnant.
Doakan baby sehat..

Pagi ni dh start muntah angin..

Tabahkan diri..
Suami dan keluarga jauh, tapi Allah sentiasa ada.


Moga Allah lindungi baby dan saya selalu..

Lots of love,

Z

Good News

I have one, as per subject.

Stay tuned, still waiting for official result:)

Korean Dramas and Honeymoon

Now I'm digging Jang Ok Jung and When Tomorrow Comes.
Hehe can't wait to watch the ending.

Dulu saya tonton 1 drama korea ni, ending dia buat saya nangis.
Secara mengadanya terus call husband. Hehe.

Ahhh..another fortnight to see him.
"Every date feels like honeymoon"-Husband

:)

Some People At Work

Yeah, recently I rasa bengang with some people at work.
Sorang ni, bini macam hapa.
Sorang lagi mulut takda insurance.

I ni kalau rasa bengkek dengan org di opis, I akan ignore je orang tu.
I wont prolong the madness or bengkekness.
It's not healthy sebab opis is a place I cari rezeki.

I will forget the moment of bengkekness.


On the other hand, personal life's good.
:)

Great Weekend

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah..
I love the memories, semuanya lah.
Bila husband dah balik, every single thing reminds me of him.

I miss him:)

Love his company, always.

Minggu Yg Penuh

Minggu yang hectic. Projek sana sini, submit itu ini.
Pening, buek buek buek. Tapi kerja, layan je la kan.
This month I saja try guna OPK nak 'study' more about myself.
This time is about my ovulation.
Hihi.

Baru I tau belajar tentang operasi badan manusia dan anatominya sgt cool!
Engineering sgt lah bosan ok. Haha.

On the other hand, life's great. Husband is coming again this weekend which I really cannot wait.

I love him much, Dear Allah. Thank you.

Chemical Pregnancy

Last weekend was awesome despite a not-so-good news I received.
Hubby came over and we had so much fun. Benarlah org kata, pergi lah mana pun mesti seronok asalkan bersama dengan orang kita sayang. Allah dah atur kehidupan kita sebaik yg mungkin. Perfect timing. Never too early, never too late.
We'll be on that later.

I had a +ve upt last week but turned -ve a few days later.
Aneh, excitement saya hanya untuk sekejap. Hehe sape tak excited kan bila dapat UPT +ve although it was only a faint line.
Later, after I got a -ve upt result I had a 3 days heavy tummy cramp. Yes, miss P was delayed too.  Memang sakit teramat tummy cramp tu, nearly cried.

Kebetulan hubby datang last weekend and we went to see gynea together.
She said I had a chemical pregnancy.

Imagine getting a positive pregnancy test only to start your period a few days later. Chemical pregnancies are unfortunately common and extremely heartbreaking, yet so little is understood about them. The two most basic things to understand about chemical pregnancy is that it was a real pregnancy, and it is a real miscarriage.

A chemical pregnancy should really be called an early miscarriage. The term “chemical pregnancy” implies that the pregnancy wasn’t real or that it was some kind of mix-up.

Now I know kenapa perut sangat sakit sejurus lepas dapat -ve upt.

It was a chemical pergnancy, this is really new to me. It means that the ovum and the sperm met but tak sempat jadi fetus. :)

Allah knows best. Rezeki saya belum tiba.

Allah hantar husband untuk teman saya last weekend, sgt indah rasanya. First time jumpa gynea, husband terpinga tengok perut saya di scan, husband dah pesan jangan buat vaginal scan. Haha ok syg. Saya pun belum ready. Haha.

Then excited je tgk gambar rahim saya walaupun takde pun baby dalam tu:).

It was great. Sayang husband sgt2.

He was really sweet. 

I still remember before we went to bed, he hugged me tightly and said to me;

" Maafkan abang atas segala salah abang, atas segala ketidaksempurnaan abang"

He made me smile. Jarang husband buat ayat touching macam tu. To me, he's the perfect man for me.

I love him mucho.

Confused

In my life, as far as I remember lah kan..Miss P was never delayed.
My tummy dah tak selesa now.
So many possibilities:

• Saya ada penyakit (mintak jauhkan dariku, Ya Allah tolong)
• Saya pregnant
• Miss P lambat sket this month sebab hormon yg bertukar.

Nak kata pregnant, macam tak. Takde la loya pun. Cuma perut ja la, on-off mild cramp mixed with aggressive cramp. Bila aggresive cramp tu, sakit dia macam nak menangis tau. Kalau ada hubby mesti dia dah peluk I calm me down kan. *gatal* hehe.

On the other hand. working life is REALLY BAD now.
I rasa nak nangis balik kerja tadi. Dah cuba tenangkan diri supaya tak gaduh dengan orang..

Perasaan ni sungguh tak enak.
Sedih, marah, tak best, sensitive, cepat terasa.

Dah lama tak mudah nangis sejak kawen sebab married life is wonderful.

Luckily husband is coming this weekend.
I love u much baby...
My imam..:)

Delayed

Delayed flight is annoying, Delayed Miss P..?
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Is hope. Amiin Ya Allah..:)

Post-Wedding: Photos

Salam people..I'd like to share with you some of our wedding photos:)

Guna phone camera je. Us and my Sheffield buddy:) Thanks for coming dear

My utmost favourite photo! Hihi. Love it.

Me and bunga tangan nikah yg saya buat sendiri je. Hihi

On the right is my bridal room. Table lamp by IKEA, velvet rose by Semua House, side table by IKEA, green candles by TESCO (I think la), rug by SOGO, Bedsheet from SOGO, curtain from SOGO. Hihi. Bridal room theme is; Tiffany Green. Auh love every inch of my room!

Thank You Husband

Living far from husband is not easy especially when my emotional is not stable.
I need more attention and his love. Hehe.
But I think he understands me more, husband saya cakap saya ni manja rupanya tapi tak mengada. Hehe.

Bila sedih, dia pujuk-pujuk di whatsapp..Memang lah happy kan.
Miss him a lot too.

Apa-apa pun sayang, thank you for always being there for me.
I love you forever.

Sad

I'm feeling sad:(.

Its gonna be 24 days.

It's Tuesday

Salam and morning people. It has been a while kan since I last wrote anything here.
Life has been great but it would be way much better if I stay together with my husband.

I'm supposed to be back to kl this weekend but unfortunately husband will be in Kelantan for outstation.
Hampa.

On the other hand, being married has allowed me or alarmed me to study more about my body, my anatomy.
Including my ovulation. Haha.
Ye la, selama ni tak pernah kisah bila saya ovulate.

Bila dah kawen ni, baru lah sibuk nak tahu bila saya subur.. hihihi.

Luckily I found a website selling very cheap OPK, so lepas ni boleh la closely monitor my ovulation!
Seronok juga buat test pada diri sendiri di samping dapat kenal lagi badan sendiri.
Bukan apa, selama ni saya hanya main agak je and guna my phone apps to track my menstruation/ovulation.
Some results memang tak boleh pakai pun. Hehe.

Saya doakan rezeki saya dan husband dalam masa terdekat ni.

Amiin..

Hye Helo

Being a wife teaches me a lot of things.
Now I need to learn more new terms-DPO, BBT, OPK, CD. Hehe

See you