Dan Jika Tiba Masa Itu..

Tadi saya terbayang sesuatu perkara.
Andai saya sekarang ini bersuami, bagaimana agaknya saya?
Kalau dulu, mungkin saya suka berangan perkara enak, bahagia dan ketawa saja.
No, marriage is more than that.
Marriage is the beginning of a new life. A new phase.
Some people berhijrah selepas kahwin. Dulu maybe dia free hair, smoking, liar. Tapi bila dah kahwin, she amazingly has changed.
This is a true story. I have known a woman I described above. She's a friend back in the UK.
Alhamdulillah, she is way better now and happily married.

Ok, back to my point.
Kalau dulu saya fikir seronok saja untuk kahwin, tapi permah tak you all fikir saat susah ketika kahwin?
Contohnnya jika suami saya jatuh sakit? Agaknya apa saya buat ya?
Makanya malam ni, saya sempat berfikir apa nak buat.
Masa tu, saya tahu Allah saja dapat tolong, Allah lah tempat saya bergantung harap sepenuhnya.
Undeniably, family and friends are there too. But Allah has it all, He is the enabler.

Makanya saya fikir, di saat suami saya tidak larat itu, saya akan bacakan dia Al Quran, baringkan dia di ribaan saya yang masih berkhudrat ini.

Itu saja saya mampu, selain beri dia ubat dan makan.

That is one of the sweetest things a wife should do this the husband.

Just sharing.
Take care people.

Pemilik Hati

Allah pegang hati kita, Allah yg membolak-balikkan hati.
Tapi sekenal saya tentang diri sendiri, hati saya ni keras at times. tapi bila tersentuh, lembut, luluh dan tak siapa dapat ubah lagi.
Malam ini ada sesuatu yg menyentuh, saya menangis lebih dari biasa. Bukan sebab putusnya saya dan dia, tapi lebih dari itu.
Betapa saya sebenarnya begitu rindu saya yang baik, saya yang lembut hatinya, saya yang begitu sabar, saya yg tak sia-siakan peluang, saya yg menghargai.
Saya sedih sebab saya ini begitu hancur hati bila hilang seorang yg belum tentu milik saya, sedangkan manusia lain lebih susah hidupnya.
Ramai yg makan pun tak cukup, rumah pun sehelai sepinggang.
Sorry, tak reti nak describe rumah yang daif.
Maybe I was too focused on my personal life these days.
Maybe I was a little bit drifted from being right.
Saya ada dengar ustaz cakap, manusia ni, kalau dia baik, boleh melebihi malaikat.
Sebab tu, iman kita ni bukan constant pun, hatta yang belajar agama.
Maksud saya, semua org akan teruji imannya. Iman itu kan turun naik? Naiknya dengan amalan baik, turunnya dengan dosa kita sendiri.

Saya tak mahu bercakap banyak, cumanya mahu welcome the Ramadhan.
Saya pohon keberkatan di bulan mulia ni.
:)
Goodnight.

We Live With Memories

I promised you readers that I will post happy tunes but life gets harder these days. The same case happened and I guess not lucky enough in relationships. Yes it hurts so bad that I cried three times yesterday. It's sad to know that all this while I've been living with disapproval and uncertainties. Also, I have been waiting for miracles to happen. No, no miracles and nothing is new. He blamed me for being impatient and emotional but he might have forgotten that this woman was waiting so patiently and kept holding on to the long distance despite the disapproval. This time I cant take it anymore. Let it be, let it end so that I can move on. Im just not a favourite, well that pains me. I called it off and I pray for a strength for this. This pain i cant bear anymore. You're the guy I have loved and I will cherish the memories we had. At least all those are worth remembering. If I miss you, I still keep our things. I might cry for days but that's it. You take care.  If we're meant to be, I accept it as my jodoh but I'm not gona try to make things work.

Oh Dear!

homaigod homaigod. (nada sedikit gedik).
Life has been a little bit unwell, mainly work-related.
Shutdown. Shutdown.
Yesterday, pecah rekod ever, I worked for 15 hrs! Gila ok, hari ni dengan jayanya saya bergegas pulang awal sekitar jam 730pm.
Makanya terus ke kedai beli barang-barang peribadi sambil menikmati angin malam Bintulu.
Hello world, well in case you have been missing me.
Apart from work, I dont have much to say as I haven't seen my friends for quite long now.
Ish ish ish no more chit chatting and lepak time.
But I would like to share with you some pixels I took during my day out with family last 2 weeks