Sunday, December 8, 2013

24 Weeks

Salam all.. It has been about 18 weeks since I last wrote anything here. Sekarang pregnancy dah 24 minggu Alhamdulillah..
Life is good and last month hubby and I went to Qatar for our honeymoon. Hehe kidding.. Actually I had a conference there with my boss but boss suggested me to bring along hubby as I'm pregnant and might need more attention. Thank you bosses sebab memahami. The trip was awesome, memang seronok first time ke luar negara dengan suami.
Next, my appetite increases and me keeps eating. Last month berat naik 5kg in just a month and doc suruh control makan takut diri ini gemuk sgt serta baby besar sgt. Hahahaha.

Ok, will write more ya.
Love, Z

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Rezeki di Bulan Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah, khamis ni cukup 6 minggu I pregnant.
Doakan baby sehat..

Pagi ni dh start muntah angin..

Tabahkan diri..
Suami dan keluarga jauh, tapi Allah sentiasa ada.


Moga Allah lindungi baby dan saya selalu..

Lots of love,

Z

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Good News

I have one, as per subject.

Stay tuned, still waiting for official result:)

Friday, July 12, 2013

Korean Dramas and Honeymoon

Now I'm digging Jang Ok Jung and When Tomorrow Comes.
Hehe can't wait to watch the ending.

Dulu saya tonton 1 drama korea ni, ending dia buat saya nangis.
Secara mengadanya terus call husband. Hehe.

Ahhh..another fortnight to see him.
"Every date feels like honeymoon"-Husband

:)

Some People At Work

Yeah, recently I rasa bengang with some people at work.
Sorang ni, bini macam hapa.
Sorang lagi mulut takda insurance.

I ni kalau rasa bengkek dengan org di opis, I akan ignore je orang tu.
I wont prolong the madness or bengkekness.
It's not healthy sebab opis is a place I cari rezeki.

I will forget the moment of bengkekness.


On the other hand, personal life's good.
:)

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Great Weekend

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah..
I love the memories, semuanya lah.
Bila husband dah balik, every single thing reminds me of him.

I miss him:)

Love his company, always.


Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Minggu Yg Penuh

Minggu yang hectic. Projek sana sini, submit itu ini.
Pening, buek buek buek. Tapi kerja, layan je la kan.
This month I saja try guna OPK nak 'study' more about myself.
This time is about my ovulation.
Hihi.

Baru I tau belajar tentang operasi badan manusia dan anatominya sgt cool!
Engineering sgt lah bosan ok. Haha.

On the other hand, life's great. Husband is coming again this weekend which I really cannot wait.

I love him much, Dear Allah. Thank you.

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Chemical Pregnancy

Last weekend was awesome despite a not-so-good news I received.
Hubby came over and we had so much fun. Benarlah org kata, pergi lah mana pun mesti seronok asalkan bersama dengan orang kita sayang. Allah dah atur kehidupan kita sebaik yg mungkin. Perfect timing. Never too early, never too late.
We'll be on that later.

I had a +ve upt last week but turned -ve a few days later.
Aneh, excitement saya hanya untuk sekejap. Hehe sape tak excited kan bila dapat UPT +ve although it was only a faint line.
Later, after I got a -ve upt result I had a 3 days heavy tummy cramp. Yes, miss P was delayed too.  Memang sakit teramat tummy cramp tu, nearly cried.

Kebetulan hubby datang last weekend and we went to see gynea together.
She said I had a chemical pregnancy.

Imagine getting a positive pregnancy test only to start your period a few days later. Chemical pregnancies are unfortunately common and extremely heartbreaking, yet so little is understood about them. The two most basic things to understand about chemical pregnancy is that it was a real pregnancy, and it is a real miscarriage.
A chemical pregnancy should really be called an early miscarriage. The term “chemical pregnancy” implies that the pregnancy wasn’t real or that it was some kind of mix-up.

Now I know kenapa perut sangat sakit sejurus lepas dapat -ve upt.
It was a chemical pergnancy, this is really new to me. It means that the ovum and the sperm met but tak sempat jadi fetus. :)
Allah knows best. Rezeki saya belum tiba.
Allah hantar husband untuk teman saya last weekend, sgt indah rasanya. First time jumpa gynea, husband terpinga tengok perut saya di scan, husband dah pesan jangan buat vaginal scan. Haha ok syg. Saya pun belum ready. Haha.
Then excited je tgk gambar rahim saya walaupun takde pun baby dalam tu:).
It was great. Sayang husband sgt2.
He was really sweet. 
I still remember before we went to bed, he hugged me tightly and said to me;
" Maafkan abang atas segala salah abang, atas segala ketidaksempurnaan abang"
He made me smile. Jarang husband buat ayat touching macam tu. To me, he's the perfect man for me.
I love him mucho.

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Confused

In my life, as far as I remember lah kan..Miss P was never delayed.
My tummy dah tak selesa now.
So many possibilities:

  • Saya ada penyakit (mintak jauhkan dariku, Ya Allah tolong)
  • Saya pregnant
  • Miss P lambat sket this month sebab hormon yg bertukar.
Nak kata pregnant, macam tak. Takde la loya pun. Cuma perut ja la, on-off mild cramp mixed with aggressive cramp. Bila aggresive cramp tu, sakit dia macam nak menangis tau. Kalau ada hubby mesti dia dah peluk I calm me down kan. *gatal* hehe.


On the other hand. working life is REALLY BAD now.
I rasa nak nangis balik kerja tadi. Dah cuba tenangkan diri supaya tak gaduh dengan orang..

Perasaan ni sungguh tak enak.
Sedih, marah, tak best, sensitive, cepat terasa.

Dah lama tak mudah nangis sejak kawen sebab married life is wonderful.

Luckily husband is coming this weekend.
I love u much baby...
My imam..:)

Delayed

Delayed flight is annoying, Delayed Miss P..?
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Is hope. Amiin Ya Allah..:)

Friday, June 14, 2013

Post-Wedding: Photos

Salam people..I'd like to share with you some of our wedding photos:)




Guna phone camera je. Us and my Sheffield buddy:) Thanks for coming dear


My utmost favourite photo! Hihi. Love it.

Me and bunga tangan nikah yg saya buat sendiri je. Hihi

On the right is my bridal room. Table lamp by IKEA, velvet rose by Semua House, side table by IKEA, green candles by TESCO (I think la), rug by SOGO, Bedsheet from SOGO, curtain from SOGO. Hihi. Bridal room theme is; Tiffany Green. Auh love every inch of my room!

Thank You Husband

Living far from husband is not easy especially when my emotional is not stable.
I need more attention and his love. Hehe.
But I think he understands me more, husband saya cakap saya ni manja rupanya tapi tak mengada. Hehe.

Bila sedih, dia pujuk-pujuk di whatsapp..Memang lah happy kan.
Miss him a lot too.

Apa-apa pun sayang, thank you for always being there for me.
I love you forever.

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Sad

I'm feeling sad:(.

Its gonna be 24 days.


Wednesday, June 12, 2013

It's Tuesday

Salam and morning people. It has been a while kan since I last wrote anything here.
Life has been great but it would be way much better if I stay together with my husband.

I'm supposed to be back to kl this weekend but unfortunately husband will be in Kelantan for outstation.
Hampa.

On the other hand, being married has allowed me or alarmed me to study more about my body, my anatomy.
Including my ovulation. Haha.
Ye la, selama ni tak pernah kisah bila saya ovulate.

Bila dah kawen ni, baru lah sibuk nak tahu bila saya subur.. hihihi.

Luckily I found a website selling very cheap OPK, so lepas ni boleh la closely monitor my ovulation!
Seronok juga buat test pada diri sendiri di samping dapat kenal lagi badan sendiri.
Bukan apa, selama ni saya hanya main agak je and guna my phone apps to track my menstruation/ovulation.
Some results memang tak boleh pakai pun. Hehe.

Saya doakan rezeki saya dan husband dalam masa terdekat ni.

Amiin..

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Hye Helo

Being a wife teaches me a lot of things.
Now I need to learn more new terms-DPO, BBT, OPK, CD. Hehe

See you

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Testing Mobile Blogging

Helo.. Testing blogging via mobile phone. Hehe.

This coming weekend will be seeing my darling husband.

:)

New Phase of Life

I have been living a single life independently for the past 7 years (since my college years, university-UK, Bintulu) and married life has become a total change for me.
Yes, I'm married to a very nice man, the one I have known for 4 years now.
Alhamdulillah, I'm really thankful for what Allah has given me.

The Akad Nikah ceremony went smooth and to me it was rather quick and simple hehe.
Additionally, we performed solat sunat nikah and he placed his hand on my 'ubun-ubun' and recited some prayers.
At that moment, I felt relieved and safe. No tears rolled down on cheek because I was really happy.

I remember the only time I cried was when spending the first night at my in law's house.
Sad to see my families leaving and I need to adapt with my new life, new families too:).

But it was all good, new families are big and they are all friendly. Hehe.

Personally, getting married is a very positive change for me as I have a lifetime partner now.
He leads me to get closer to Allah and keeps remind me to be a good muslimah and wife.

Its just that sometimes I think I need more time to adapt with the new status. hehe

May our marriage is blessed by Allah, may this marriage be a platform for us to be better.

Amiin.

Pray for us ya.



Saturday, April 13, 2013

Alhamdulillah, Married to a Wonderful Husband

Syukur kepada Allah kerana menjodohkan saya dengan lelaki yg sangat istimewa, sempurna untuk saya.

Selamat diijabkabulkan minggu lepas.

Rindu imam saya itu, terima kasih untuk semua kebahagiaan sayang.

I love you till jannah, amiin..

Will write more:)

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Beberapa Perkara Gembira

Hujung minggu sudah hampir ke hujungnya. Ahad di kala malam, aku tersenyum melihat kasut baru ku beli tadi.

:)

Beberapa perkara senyum untuk hari ini:
1) Gotong royong mengemas rumah bersama ahli bait. Top to toe ok. Seronok sangat bila rumah kemas super hehe. We also 'made' a new dining table dan secara automatik mood memasak kembali datang. FYI, sudah berbulan-bulan saya tidak masak. Mood takde kot. Now it comes back hehe.
2) While shopping for groceries this noon, I bought myself a new pair of shoes and I decided to wear it during my nikah day. To the mosque and for outdoor photoshoot:).
3) I cooked. Made nasi ayam and housemates love it. Hihihi.

Wedding preparation is sailing smooth. Believe it or not, fiance and I haven't really decided the hantaran for each other. We dont really mind I guess. To me, lagi la. Kalau takde barang hantaran pun takpe. I dont mind actually.Tapi takpe lah, both sides of families want some hantaran to be made. I ikutkan ajer.

Lagi seminggu nak balik untuk cuti kahwin.
:)

Later
xx

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Bukan Hari Kesempurnaan

Mr Fiance pesan, jangan stress fikirkan urusan hari perkahwinan. Tentunya hal 'post wedding day' lebih penting.
Tambahnya, ingat; "Our wedding Day bukan hari kesempurnaan kita, ianya hari bahagia kita di mana kita sepatutnya rasa ceria, hari orang-orang meraikan kita:)"

xx

Friday, March 8, 2013

Stress

Was having an extreme stress at work this morning.
Cried at the corner of office stairs, a colleague saw me crying.

Sigh.

I just want to get married now and have a romantic date with him.

Blueks.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

This Is Rare

Mr fiance was mad this morning and rarely I find it sweet.
Crazy you may call me but I love the reason he was mad.

I'm sorry dear, just remember, patience heals everything.

Allah is with is with us, always.


Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Move On

So last night, I realised I have moved on too far in life.
I left a lot of things, I lost some things and friends too.

Looking back, rindu pula kawan2 Sheffield..
:)

Monday, March 4, 2013

Mimpi ke Bulan

Malam semalam mimpi indah.
Ku naik ke bulan, inginku apung di udara.

Hari ni badan terasa lemah semacam, kurang sihat. Kepala pun pusing.
Esok kerja dalam 'bilik kebal' lagi.
Bosan.

Goodnite


Sunday, March 3, 2013

The Saddening Sabah

It was so sad to hear our heroes killed because of the intruders in Sabah

Sedih, literally sedih.
Ya Allah, selamatkan lah hamba2 Mu yang berjuang untuk tanah air kami..
Lindungilah kami Ya Allah...:(

Wedding Prep Eps 4

Hai friends..
I start to feel nervous now.
Tried my reception tudung and not really happy with it *suddenly pula, masa beli suka pula. lols*.
Mr. Fiance is busy, he is working on Sunday. *note that we have different weekend now*.
Me? Just finished placing ribbons on my wedding cards. Some cards are posted to friends.
Next, tried my wedding shoes, 2 inch and Im not really into heels T_T.
Apa lagi? Tried to google how to DIY bunga tangan for nikah. Thinking of having red roses for my nikah bunga tangan.
Next? Just confirmed with my mak andam. I want her to do my make up for all events-Nikah, Sanding and bertandang. I dont think I would be able to hold an eyeliner pun masa tu. *haha exaggerate to show how nervous I would be*.
Next?
I stress fikir sume2 ni, nak mengadu kat tunang, dia kerja.
Hence I'm writing this.

Wish me luck.
Plus, I need to practise to be a wife now.


Saturday, March 2, 2013

SaveTheDate :)

I'm getting married this month.







finally...
The battle is coming to its end.



Alhamdulillah.

Doakan urusan kami dimudahkan.


I dok baca bride-to-be blogs, a lot DIYs they made.
Me?
Not much.
Except that I placed a ribbon to my own wedding card for close friends.

Till then, nanti I update lagi.

xoxo
Za

Monday, February 4, 2013

Sotong Gula: Unpredictably Sweet

So I told mr fiance I only had sotong gula for dinner.

Me: Ayg tgk tv jap citer jodoh.. Ok bb kuar dulu k..Ayg lapart tapi tahan sket sebab nak diet..

After a while..

Me: Bb dah makan?
Tunang: Baru sampai rumah. Tak sanggup makan sebab b diet makan sotong gula je:)

He is unpredictably sweet at times

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Wedding Preparation Eps 3

Not much done for my wedding except for PLANNING.
Lols pretty much worrying eyh?
As of today:

1) Photographer & his hospitality: DONE. Siap dapat diskaun lagi for his stay. Alhamdulillah.
2) Baju nikah: Siap of this month. Moga semuanya smooth.
3) Kad jemputan: Siap next week. Tunggu ya rakan2, I will distribute accordingly.
4) Pengapit: Ambil cousin sendiri je haha.
5) HIV Test and all the forms: DONE.
6) Pelamin: Identified.
7) Hiasan meja makan pengantin: Identified
8) Design for bridal room: DONE. Cuma nak tunggu beli barang2 macam bedsheet, curtains, rug, mirror and table lamp. Oh oh I tak reti sgt interior design ni. Huehue.

Cincin for him belum beli.
Kasut nikah (Tiffany blue) belum jumpa.

Oh oh headache dan tak gemar sgt writing about this.

:S.

On the other hand, life is pretty much normal. Works are fine.
Last week, for the first time ever I approached my boss and asked for a transfer to tanah melayu.
As I expected, boss suruh tunggu until my service with Petronas becomes 4 years which will be this Sept.
I ada juga risik2 position di Petronas tempat lain, jumpa juga positions tapi not as same as what I'm doing now.
But still an engineer position. I just love the location.
Tapi ya la, not that easy to get release from boss here:((

Whatever la kan..
Next, I tunggu my fiance survey baju wedding kami.
Surprisingly, he is kinda cerewet juga.
Kuang2.

I will write more.




Wednesday, January 23, 2013

A Curse

Whenever I mention you in this blog, something will come up.
It's like a curse.

So I better stop writing about you.

-Flying back to Bintulu.
Changi-KL-Bintulu.

Malam ni nak makan Sup Kawah dengan Kim:)

xoxo

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Wedding Preparation Eps 2: The Ring and Hantaran

When I first saw this ring, I fell in love.
Until now:)

Next, I went shopping today. The whole Sunday spent with shopping and ring resizing. Yes, ring yang I beli tu longgar. Haha since masa beli tu size takde, I insist nak design tu jugak, then I went for resizing je. Settle. I know people offered me ring guard and told me that after kawen jari akan besar and all.
I know dearies. Tapi I tak gemar ring guard tu sume, rimas dan risau akan damage/scratch my ring. Resizing your wedding ring is actually a motivation not to gain weight in the future:p

Ok, below is the hasil tangkapan untuk hari ini. 3 handbags- 1) For mommy 2) Sister 3) Own hantaran 
Simple je, I love all of them. Alhamdulillah Singapore sedang sale. 



Until I see you again,
xoxo

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Sweet Day, "Will You Marry Me?"

I still love that day, one of the sweetest chapter in life.






RM15

That's the cost I need to pay for a return flight from Bintulu-KL-Bintulu.

Only RM15.

Thank you Allah:)

Credit to Air Asia free seats promotion

Saturday, January 5, 2013

My Work: The Love-Hate Relationship

You know, I don't really like writing about my working life. It's no fancy like what other women are doing.
Takpe, bila saya stress sgt pasal kerja, saya fikir saya ni kene bersyukur.
Ituuuu saja my motivation, other than money la kot.
Of course I need the money.
Hehe. Tapi jangan lupa konsep bersyukur tu.
Ok, back on track.
This is rather a good news for me.
Last year 2012 I received a very good Personal Performance Appraisal rating.
I'm really really happy for it, Alhamdulillah.

Thanks bosses for trusting me.
Hehe.
And for all yang belum tahu, my workplace is in Bintulu, Sarawak.
Far far away land from home, I know.

Hence, I missed a lot of things.
Friends events, some catch ups, meetings, hatta nak pilih baju pengantin pun Mr. Fiance terpaksa tolong.
Dengan bantuan kakak iparku. hehe Thanks kakak:).

Ok, back to working life.
This year, insyaAllah I will do better and keep the momentum to strive for the best.
I think the satisfaction at workplace is my boss' trust.
And of course good results/whenever I solve problems.

See, takde yang fancy about my work. Huehue.
Oklah, dah 3 entri ni.
I will write more love.
xoxo

Wedding Checklist

Salam friends and readers, I would like to jot down the checklist for my wedding.
Saya ni cepat juga lupa, here's the list:

1. Tempah baju nikah: 12/1
2. Tempah kad kahwin: 12/1
3. Cari kain untuk seisi keluarga: 12/1 (Ya Allah semuanya nak buat hari tu, sempat ke? hehe)
4. Cari hand bouquet. Saya kalau boleh taknak fresh flower. But who knows if I change my mind later?:)
5. Wedding dress selection & fitting: Chinese New Year. 9 or 10/2.
6. Wedding shoes: During my business trip to singapore nanti. Haha. Harap2 sempat cari barang sikit di sana.

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banyak lagi dalam kotak minda, nanti saya tambah ya.

xoxo

Wedding Preparation Eps 1

Salam and hai all..
Dah lama tak update blog. Busy? Takla sangat.
Tapi sejak balik bertunang hari tu, memang sibuk sedikit. SEBELUM tunang lagi la.
EVERY week saya balik malaya tau.
Duit dalam bank dah makin pupus ditelan dek kapal terbang. Haha..
Anyways I will be getting married in less than 3 months.

Preparation? I would say about 20%.
Sigh worrying tak? Haha takpe kita cuba chillax ok..Jangan gelabah.
Alhamdulillah setelah survey sana sini, minta quotation, call macam2 orang, akhirnya jumpa juga my official wedding photographer.
InsyaAllah gambar-gambar saya nanti cantik. cewah.

Next? MUA. I prefer sekitar utara, senang dan jimat kos transportation. Kalau anda nak recommend, silakan:).

Next? Theme. Since bertunang haritu dah guna tema purple (last minute). Haha baju tunang agak menarik ceritanya sebab semuanya last minit. Baju dan tudung semua beli one day before my engagement.

Makanya, wedding on my side saya mahu PINK. Oh I think I look good in pink. Haha.
Nikah dah MINT GREEN, wedding apa salahnya saya nak pink kan? Reception I'm not sure yet.
Mama di sana suggest maroon.
Will see how Mr. Fiance thinks about it.

Tugas Mr. Fiance adalah mencari baju wedding kami. Dalam hal ni, saya serahkan 100% kepada dia.
Photographer biar saya yang cari..
So I trust his taste la, fuh agak challenging biar lelaki carikan baju. Haha.
InsyaAllah OK.

Apa lagi ya? Kalau sempat, saya nak cari sendiri kasut untuk weddingku.
Selalunya kasut sewa ni tinggi sangat atau pun tak kena dengan taste kita.
Takpe, kalau ada kasut cantik apa salahnya.
We'll see how.

Kad? Next week saya balik kl, akan cari sama-sama di samping tempah baju nikah.
Also cari barang hantaran sikit2.

Penatnya fikir..

Alhamdulillah my engagement went smoothly.
Simple and sweet, orang yang cakap la..Hehe. I pun fikir macam tu. hihi
Ok all, I will write more.

xoxo